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Anonymous asked: "Do you can give me any good book recommendations? :) (I'm a 16 year old girl and I loved e.g the books "The Perks of being a wallflower" or "The fault in our stars")"ok, so, I’m portuguese and I read a lot of portuguese books but I know writers like Sarah Dessen, she has amazing books! I read Someone Like You and I loved it! My best friend read The Truth About Forever and This Lullabye (I think), by her as well, and she absolutely loved it, hope I could help (:
Feel the Pain ( Kendall Imagine )
This imagine contains very strong content if you don’t like don’t read!
Kendall was on set today, you haven’t really seen much of each other because he has been getting home late and leaving early. You missed him it’s been really hard not being able to see your boyfriend of two years as much as you would like. Kendall has been texting you and calling when he could, but it wasn’t the same. You started to feel alone, but you knew it wasn’t Kendall’s fault he was working so hard, and you knew he loved you very much. There was also pain and worry coming from the upcoming tour where you knew Kendall was going to have to leave for months at a time.
You were laying on the couch watching tv and you hear your phone ring and its a tweet that Kendall tagged you in, “Miss her so dearly, haven’t been seeing much of her wish we could get some alone time :( ,” you feel a tear drip down your cheek reading this. The pain in your chest was slowly growing, and you wanted it to go away.
You start to get a lot of mentions on your twitter like, “Ugh, why would you want to see her”“God she is so ugly why do you want her Kendall”“I’m way better than she is”“She is nothing drop dead”“God can she just get a life already instead of being attached to Kendall.”
These girls didn’t even know you, the pain you felt from these hurtful words were unbearable. You rush to the bathroom and in one of your feminine bags you find one of your old razor blades that you haven’t used in almost two years. Kendall made you feel better, but everything was crashing down all at once. You sit on the cold tile ground taking off the bracelets on your right wrist. You see very faint lines from when you used to cut on your wrist causing you to cry more. You take the razor blade across your wrist watching the little blood droplet appear from under the blade. You feel the pain, but it makes the pain from those comments disappear slightly. Just then in the middle of your second cut you hear your bedroom door open and close then you hear the bathroom door open, “There you are babe,” he pauses taking what he is seeing in from of him.
“Babe what are you doing?” he rushes towards you taking a cloth off the counter and presses it into your cuts you wince. “What are you thinking? Why are you doing this to yourself. You could really get hurt!” He was raising his voice, but you could sense the disappointment and sadness in his voice. He takes a wrap from under the sink and wraps it around your wrist and then kisses the wrap covering the cuts. You feel so bad that you’re putting him through this and you just start sobbing.
Kendall sighs and picks you up and takes you to the bed, and just lets you cry on his chest. He tightens his arms around your body as you cry into the crook of his neck. Kendall rubs your back, quietly trying to sooth you, “Shh baby it’s ok i’m here for you. I’m not going anywhere. I love you so much,” you start to calm down from his encouraging words. He runs his fingers through his hair, and kisses your temple.
“I’m sorry Kendall,” you look up at him and he kisses your forehead.
“Don’t ever do this again. I can’t stand to see you hurting yourself like that. I’m always here for you whenever you need me. I don’t care if i’m all the way on the east coast. I will take the first flight out of there to be with you. I promise you this. That’s what i’m here for baby. I love you,” he wipes your tears of your cheek and pulls you into a kiss that makes you feel loved and wanted.
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